the child grows enormous but never grows up
Speedy Ortiz - No Below
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amandamartinez:

Well, this is surely one of the weirdest things I’ve ever seen. It’s streaming on Netflix, for anyone interested. Look out for a VERY STRANGE scene midway through that has June Carter Cash playing the part of Mary Magdalene. Warning: I kinda wish I hadn’t watched this. I’m too weirded out.

amandamartinez:

Well, this is surely one of the weirdest things I’ve ever seen. It’s streaming on Netflix, for anyone interested. Look out for a VERY STRANGE scene midway through that has June Carter Cash playing the part of Mary Magdalene. Warning: I kinda wish I hadn’t watched this. I’m too weirded out.

why project versions of myself or imagined, hypothetical selves or god forbid other people onto fictional characters in an attempt to transcend shy, anxious, lowly me by creating something possibly meaningful if not valuable when i can write mealymouthed, ambiguous, vague, angsty, adjective-laden things here lacking all context and identifiable referents

In a strange room you must empty yourself for sleep. And before you are emptied for sleep, what are you. And when you are emptied for sleep, what are you. And when you are emptied for sleep you are not. And when you are filled with sleep, you never were. I don’t know what I am. I don’t know if I am or not.

an immense, burdensome, relief-free sigh

thenotes:

As the drugs had worn off, a couple of years earlier, he had started to realize what it must be like to be lucid all the time, an unpunctuated stretch of consciousness, a white tunnel, hollow and dim, like a bone with the marrow sucked out. ‘I want to die, I want to die, I want to die,’ he found himself muttering in the middle of the most ordinary task, swept away by a landslide of regret as the kettle boiled or the toast popped up.

At the same time, his past lay before him like a corpse waiting to be embalmed. He was woken every night by savage nightmares; too frightened to sleep, he climbed out of his sweat-soaked sheets and smoked cigarettes until the dawn crept into the sky, pale and dirty as the gills of a poisonous mushroom. His flat in Ennismore Gardens was strewn with violent videos which were a shadowy expression of the endless reel of violence that played in his head. Constantly on the verge of hallucination, he walked on ground that undulated softly, like a swallowing throat.

Edward St. Aubyn, Some Hope

bare branch
withered branch
withered bough
leafless bough
dead branches
barren branch
dead limb
leafless branches
A branch shorn of leaves

Do not keep saying to yourself, if you can possibly avoid it, “But how can it be like that?” because you will get ‘down the drain’, into a blind alley from which nobody has escaped. Nobody knows how it can be like that.

millsinabout:

  1. the most important film yet made
  2. if you make it through the “intro music” phase, the later parts are very relaxing to watch closely
The Template

seinfelt:

Jerry does a funny but immoral thing. Kramer does something ingenious, but is undermined by either his friends or himself. Elaine is a good person made bad by the people she associates with. George is immoral, but also quite dumb.